SeongJoon Lee (23 year old)
Level 7 / Gwangjoo Baek Won Center
Written in Aug 22, 2015
Hello. I have been meditating for six months now. In fact, I have lived until now with many judgments. I had many conflicts with my parents due to my judgments and my relationships with my friends were not good. While looking back upon myself, I lived deceiving myself, turning my back on myself. Because of this “superior” me, I thought negatively of others.
My enlightenment through meditation has become more precious than anything else in this world. It changed me and made me a true person. I am now ashamed of this ‘me’ who was trapped for so long in this ‘false’ world. I was surprised to learn that both making money and studying came from my selfish mind.
Until now, I thought I was living like Jesus, being generous. But after I closed my eyes and repented I came to know that my actions of the past and that ‘me’ were all a pretense. Now I see all aspects of my true self and can now live a life free of pretense. I feel that the ‘me’ who does sincerely on behalf of others is beginning to emerge from within me. Now that I know what the true self is, I will no longer be shaken.
I am filled with the desire to live for the world with the heart of the world. I don’t want to talk about the old world that I once had in my mind. Because I have nothing past images of myself declaring that I am so great, I am very ashamed. I want to discard that embarrassing self to become free. I want to live as my true self.
With the happiness from having met the true mind, I want to continue to go together in order to live as the true mind. Now, my job now is to live for the world with the true mind, not to live for myself. I am grateful for the method of throwing away me, which is false, that must be truly thrown away.
Source: www.meditationlife.org
